run me down

i'm fuckin upset with how everything is becoming. i'm trying to solve this tangled mess here. can you please just stop acting like a kid and saying stupid things out of your anger and resentment? it pisses me off because it is hurtful. you think you're the only one who's suffocated, tired and upset with this broken family? argh. fuck it. since you want a way out, fine. everyone should just die.

i'm fine being lonely ever after with my one love.

why dogs are better than kids

i was just looking through recent pictures of toytoy and realized how much he has grown.

about a year ago.

puppy monster love.

my fav picture of all time =)

so tiny and puppy-ish! with puppy eyes and itsy bitsy teeth.

oh how time flies.

my baby will be turning TWO in two days. we have had a lot of ups and downs, especially this year. there were a lot of points where i wanted to give up, but when i look in his eyes, i know i cannot leave him. i just cannot.

this is how he looks like recently.

he's still very adorable in his little ways but more matured.

10 reasons why dogs are better than kids

1. dogs love you unconditionally

they are always so excited to see you! they dont care if you are fat, ugly, have bad breath or pathetic. dogs are loyal. remember Hachiko: a dog story? i remember crying buckets of tears while toytoy sat next to me wondering why i was so sad.

2. they wont do stupid things, make you worried or break your heart

children grow up and be influenced by their stupid friends. they start drinking, driving, smoking and doing drugs. even if they dont, parents will always worry kids will do something stupid. like kill themselves after their parents painfully raised them for twenty years. dogs dont. they might runaway, but its easier to keep a dog from running away than it is to keep a child from doing so.

3. they dont ask for allowance and expensive gifts

children will ask for allowance raise and new shoes every single month. new handphones, camera, vacations and all nots. dogs are happy with their chew toys and just your companionship.

4. dogs dont cry the whole night

babies are the most annoying thing in the world. you need to rock them for hours, burp them, sing lullabies, and they will still wake up and wail the whole night wtf. puppies fall asleep all the time and they wont interrupt your sleep =)

5. dogs dont ask why or talk back

kids grow up to want things and not understand why they are not allowed to do/have certain things. i remember myself asking a lot of 'why, why WHY?' when i was young wtf. dogs dont talk back like children do and they dont scream 'i hate you!' when they dont get their way.

6. they dont complain

about the food not tasting good, or their clothes getting out of fashion, or their handphones not 'cool' enough. they dont critisize or judge when you had a bad day or cant cook.

7. dogs can be neutered

one of the biggest concern among parents are that their kids will grow up to learn the law of attraction and do stupid things out of lust and curiosity. mothers worry their daughters will get raped and pregnant, and worry their sons will grow up raping girls or becoming a father at tender age. dogs can just be neutered. end of story.

8. they dont lie

this goes unsaid. children will learn how to get around rules and lie and be rebellious. dogs dont.

9. they accept discipline and better behaved

kids cannot stand still. i dont understand how parents with eight children deal with all the running about and screaming. annoying much. you can just tell your dog to 'be quiet'.

10. they are not going to be independent and leave.

kids will grow up, have friends, have their own life and leave. dogs dont. they only have you. they cant be independent and they wont leave. the older a dog grows, the more he loves his owner. (unless the owner is an asshole, that is). back to point number one that they only have you and love you till they die.

but because they not human, doesnt give you a right to have a 'trial run' with them and then abandon them later when things get rough. think thoroughly before you jump into decision of owning a dog just because he is cute. it is not okay to abandon or give up children, thus, it is shouldnt be okay for owners to leave their dogs.

dogs are furkids. places which are kid-friendly like restaurants and malls, should be pet-friendly for well behaved dogs.

after all, dogs are better than kids what. =)

xoxo, viv.

konnyaku and toytoy

something is very wrong with my Satio. lately whenever i take a picture, i just cannot find it in any of the camera albums wtf. so i'ld have to make do with ipod camera at the time being until i figure out what is wrong/ throw it away and get a better phone fml.

i sprung awake at 8am today in a good mood.

until i remembered that i needed to go to uni to get a few pieces of paper which i wanted to photostat yesterday because the worker was too lazy/sick/just wanted to make my life difficult, i had to go there again today to get it.

driving there itself took me 1 hour n 30minutes. toll was rm3.20. petrol dont know how much. and i was there for barely even ten minutes. thanks to her selfishness. i dont even want to talk about how annoyed and dulan i was for that two hours.

so i came home in a foul mood and decided to make dessert to make myself happy.

KONNYAKU JELLY it was. =)

in case you dont know what it is, it is a type of candy/treat originated from japan which is really chewy and gummy with fruits and nata de coco inside. oh, and did i mention really easy to make?

i made kiwi flavored one so most of my ingredients will be 'kiwi-based'. if you're not so much of a kiwi fan, you can change the ingredients with any other fruit. lychee is a popular choice =)

Ingredients:
Konnyaku Jelly powder
4 kiwis (or more)
Nata de Coco (optional but highly recommended)


you're supposed to use moulds but i substituted it with plastic containers instead. hee =)

1) cut kiwi into small pieces and scoop nata de coco into the containers.

2) boil a 500ml of water in a pot and once it boils, SLOWLY pour the powder in and stir. make sure you stir while it boils, for around 3minutes. because if you dont, you'll have a happy time scrubbing your pot later as it hardens easily due to its gel texture.

3) off fire and set to cool for about 15 minutes.

4) then pour into the containers filled with fruits and nata de coco.


5) refrigerate for about 3hours and you'll be a happy person like i am =)


oh, did i mention that toytoy is back =) and botak. really cute. so ugly but so adorable!
awwww~

toytoy wants some too *makes puppy eyes*

i gave him a chewy mint treat instead. i laid on the floor watching him chew for 5minutes.

it made my day =)


''mummy wanna share?"


"no? you sure? it's really yummy you know"
















yums =)


"you made my day mummy"
"you made mine too darling" *hugs*


i hope it made yours too <3

second post in a day

pathetic much i know.

i had a long talk with daddy today which made me cry. i came to realize that i have became a daughter he no longer knew. i distanced myself, build high walls to hide my vulnerability and insecurities and i have gotten so used to lying and keeping secrets that almost everything i do or say is not trustworthy. and i dont seem to know how to tell the truth anymore because all i've became this defensive, secretive and distant person.

it's almost like my whole life is a lie, an imagination i made-believe.

as much as i disapproved of his ways of digging out my well-kept white lies of the life i keep secret from him and mum, it brought me to realize that it was all driven by pure care and love of a father who wants to protect his daughter. i came to see that no matter how old i grow to become, i'm still his babygirl and all he wants is to be part of it. i was touched to know of little things he has done for me, for mum, even for my brother whom he disowned, for the family.

sometimes it is the little things which matters the most.

i will take baby steps to unfold the untold side of story, own up to the lies through the years, admit to mistakes i've made, reveal bits of my life which he might not approve of, unveil the truth about my imaginary 'perfect' life, and break down the walls of silence and fortress of secrets i built. it might not undo the tangled mess i've created, but i'll try. try to stop lying, stop pushing my family away and stop pretending to be someone i'm not.

baby steps. towards becoming a truthful person. towards becoming a daughter they can be proud of. towards blossoming gracefully into an adulthood and towards maturity, i hope.

oh, enough with the reflections already.

on a lighter note, i finally brought toytoy home after almost a month apart. a hole in my pocket, but a big smile on my face, and on his =)







his fur is getting very long that he sheds alot. quite annoying that i have to vacuum the floor three times a day and still have lint on my clothes. he desperately needs a hair cut. which reminds me that I need to colour my hair. gawd i hate seeing myself in black hair. T___T


ghastly picture of me taken some time ago, in the car while waiting at the traffic lights, with lighting from the brake lights of the car in front. T___T


end post with decent picture. good night peeps!

love-hate relationship

love is when you seem to adore someone so much that you would be so broken apart to see him sad and would do everything in the world to make him happy. it is when being apart for a day seems like a million years and you miss him so bad it hurts. it is when you know that no one else can make you feel the way you do with him.

it is when he is the reason you wake up every morning with a smile and come home to with this warm fuzzy feeling inside =)

and yet hate is when you just cannot stand his overwhelming affections and display of emotions and bad temper when you dont have enough time or not in a mood. hate is when you are forced to be responsible when you are not ready to have someone who is dependent on you. it is when you know every lil action of yours affects him deeply.

it is when loneliness stings and you know that only he can cure it.

i miss you babyboy.


love-hate relationship is when you hate him and yet love him so much at the same time and know that no matter what happens, he'll love you the same. <3

mummy will bring you home soon and take you for long walks, shower you with love and affection, fatten you with loads of treats and cuddle you in bed =) promise!


<3>

the love of my life

mummy loves you more than you can ever imagine and will never give you up no matter how tough the going gets.

mummy promise to bring you home from the hotel soon. =(

#UPDATE
excuse the emo note of the post. it was past midnight yesterday and i was desperately trying to study last minute and cramp as much nonsense as i can for jurisprudence test for this morning, feeling emotional over this perpetual loneliness i bring upon myself from isolating myself and hiding in my little cave, oblivious to my surroundings and only letting a couple of people in my life. and i felt like the loneliest person in the world despite all the wonderful people around me. i hated fighting for things which are just not meant to be and how i strive to keep impossible promises and hurt myself along the way when it really doesnt matter to anyone else whether such promise is fulfilled or not. and chinese radio stations tend to play emo sad songs which trigger all these negative vibes at night. fml. it's funny that despite how i think my life is now at a standstill and comfortable position, i still get so upset over things which happened in the past which i thought i have gotten over already. ah well.

get over it viv.

personal chauffeur!

check out my super handsome personal chauffeur wtf! =)


'' yes madam, i'm toytoy at your service. it's a friday, where do you want to go for dinner tonight?''

'' anywhere lah. sister and bf are here for the weekends, why dont you take us for some nice seafood ? ''

'' right away madam''

*drives*

focused driver. wtf. haha. i know i'm getting so 'wu liao'. cant help it. toytoy is so cute i can faint. hah!

anyway, yeah, sister and bf came on friday evening, so this is where we went for seafood dinner.



Restoran Tak Fok Hong Kong Seafood

No. 2-2A, Jalan Desa 1/3,
Desa Aman Puri, Kepong
52100 Kuala Lumpur
Tel : 03-62723346


as all of you know, i am not a fan of 'outdoor dining' under the stars with plastic tables and chairs. if i were given a choice, i prefer to be indoors with nice cushioned chairs, proper illustrated menus, air conditioning, better service and more comfortable ambience.

but we didnt have a choice. =( *sulks* outdoors it was. next time i would definitely call ahead and reserve a table, considering they charge service taxes anyway! oh and make sure if you did not make a reservation, go early and beat the dinner crowd. if you happen to go during weekends around 7 or 8, be prepared to queue. *aiks.

FOOD.


kailan with oyster sauce
it was our first dish and it was really disappointing. wayyy too salty. good thing the other dishes taste much much better!


some random roast chicken
cant comment because i did not eat it since i was too busy with the other dishes =.= besides, i'm not a big fan of roast chicken anyway.


signature taufoo
man, this fuck is damn good. crispy tofu skin fried to perfection. smells and tastes so awesome! totally unexpected considering it looks so dull. good thing, i did not order my usual sizzling egg tofu, if not i'd miss out on this!


double boiled water cress soup
piping hot, and really tasty!

stars of the day!


1kg salted eggs crab
what can i say? my all time fav. did not disappoint me =)


1kg marmite crabs
smell and taste damn good!!! i'm getting all so hungry now while staring at this picture itself.


crabs were pretty cheap, rm22 per kg. but there's a catch. for every 1kg of crabs you order, you are expected to order 2 other dishes (vege, prawns, chicken etc) which are charged at higher prices. that was pretty much why we over ordered for the four of us and over stuffed ourselves =.=

actually if you think about it, the crabs arent that cheap anyway since the prices for other dishes were jacked up. but still reasonable considering the amount we ate lah. bill came up to about rm130 (inclusive of drinks, rice, and taxes).

this place would be perfect to dine with a bigger group of friends/family, not quite suitable for diners with less than 4 people. i regret not ordering their signature curry prawns in coconut, sweet sour/ cheesy crabs to go with mantao, pork ribs and some other stuff which i would have enjoyed. =(

nevermind, i'll definitely go back! if any of you want to go there to eat, please please please let me tag along =)

gotta go for now. prepare for tutorials and test on wednesday. *yawns*

upcoming post on awesome weekend with sister. stay tuned.

handsome boy

is back! =D *damn happy*

had been almost a month! miss his furry warm fuzzy little body soooo much =) and he had this really nice haircut from the groomer. mad love =D smells so damn good and his fur condition has improved tremendously! no more itchy discoloured patches. LOVE!

sadly he didnt wanna take a lot of pics =.="

the only decent picture i managed to capture by bribing him with treats.



love, viv

lunch =)

gah. i must applaud myself for my patience first. took me almost 3 hours just to upload the photos cause broadband is being gay. sigh. so you must stalk and stare at my pictures long long okayy.

woke up past 3 today. decided to go for lunch/tea at

La' Castle Cafe
13-A, Jalan Desa 2/8, Desa Aman Puri, 52100 K.L

(situated very very near the KIP Drive-thru McDonalds!)
+603 6277 6127 +6012 2781181 +6017669942


typical cafe. very casual ambience with some magazines and board games available.

but what got me oh-so-hyped-and-excited was because it had been published all over blogs and magazines alike as a PET-FRIENDLY CAFE. toytoy says WUFFF =)

got play-pen somemore. wuff wuff =)

toytoy alone in playpen cause we went during an odd hour where there we were the only customers around besides another table nearby.

since toy toy was getting a bit naughty, pee-ing all over in the pen, trying to mark his territory, decided to put him on the chair instead.

so cute, i think i almost fainted when i captured this pic =) it is sooooooo difficult to take good photographs of dogs (or maybe just toytoy). they are always so easilty distracted by people walking by, cars passing, or just every little thing, or just plain camera-shy.

for every 1 good picture, i must have tried at least 10 times.

another really handsome picture of him on the super pretty leopard printed pillow. so jealous loh. we, humans, sit on the bare chair with no cushion, dog got pillow pulak! *faints*


obviously enjoying himself very very well =)

another failed picture. =.=



sorry though, i completely forgotten to take pictures of the food cz i was too caught up taking pictures of toytoy and reading some pet magazine. besides, food was so-so. not too good, not bad either. just very average. but it is actually very very affordable and reasonably-priced.

rm5.90 for my bowl of curry pan mee with chicken drumstick somemore! and about rm3.20 or so for a glass of honey lemon =)

reasonable or not you tell me?


toytoy also thinks its very reasonable horrr? =)
he seems so happy. its been quite some time i took him out.

alright. gtg do house chores. blog some other time, till then,
ciaooz.


love, viv.